Halloween and longing for the Sun

Let's say that the winter has arrived, it's getting cold, very cold,...

Weeks and weeks without seeing the Sun, darkness is increasing and the clouds are blurring my mind,...

Deadline after deadline, 23 hours non-stop at work, jet lag,...

Missing the light of my region, missing feeling the Sun caressing my skin, missing walking up to the mountains with my friends and smell the rosemary, the thyme, and contemplate the sea over the valleys between the mountains...
The last time that I went there was raining so I couldn't go although I was wishing to disappear there for a few hours, to feel the immensity of the nature and clean up my mind after so many months in city. It was not possible the last time that I went,.. but I'm sure it will be possible the next time!!! so,... Lluís, Josep, Hector,.. get prepared to come with me to the mountain!!!

Lately I've also started missing Barcelona, and above all, my people from Barcelona: Marta, Raul, Marina, Kim, Carles, Manel, Jordi, Monica, Mar, Roser, Meri, Gemma,... Now, not only they are still in Barcelona but more friends are there: Pau, Carmen Paula, Maika, my cousin and my sister!!! So I feel that I should definitely go and visit them. It has been already about 9 months since I haven't been there and that's why I've already bought the ticket to go!! :-) It won't be for many days, but enough to revive the years that I lived there. It won't be until February that I will go there but I hope to see you all there!!!

Today my good friend Teresa has told me 2 sentences that have made me think a lot. They represent the way to live that I used to follow but that lately I was trying to unconsciously forget, and when you listen to that, the clear sentence: "it's better to regret something you've done than regretting having done nothing" and "there is no future without present" you suddenly start to see things clearer. Today she has been my ray of sunshine that has moved some clouds away from my mind. Thanks boniqueta to be always there!:-)

9 d'Octubre at home and how hard is being back to London,...

Friends, the ones that are always there no matters what, meeting them, meeting my family, my little cousins that have grown up, Alba starts talking and I guess that the next time I'll see her she will already be walking.

I met a friend that I've been around 7 years without hearing about her, she was studying with me at the conservatory, now she is an opera singer and a pianist. She was giving a concert and I went to listen to her. It was very exciting to see her again.

Go to the river with my sister and Teresa, swim under the clouds in the fresh water of the rain, give presents and experience the rhythm of the life over there, so different from London,...

Great weekend surrounded by lovely people, it was hard to say goodbye again.

Back to London I've had to deal with some problems at work, and I've had to work hard, very hard,... we had a deadline on Friday and I've had to bear with so much pressure and stress, awful!

Now I feel that there is something changing in my life,.. I'm taking important decisions, closing a period of my life, ending with something that has been consuming a lot of my energies and I hope I am making the right choices. I feel better in a way even though it is a pity that things have to finish like that but sometimes it is the only way,..さよなら

End of Summer, beginning of Autumn,...

After coming back from New York I've been working quite hard, we had a deadline one week ago and that supposed 2 weeks of hard work, deliverance and late hours, including some work during the weekend.

Luckily I've also had time to meet with some friends, enjoy some sunny days, visit some exhibition, start my new language lessons in Holland Park, and go to the gym. It doesn't sound very bad, does it?

My friend Natatxa has been 3 weeks in London taking an English course so I've been meeting her from time to time when I could scape from work. We went to a Viktor & Rolf exhibition, we've been enjoying a sunny Sunday in Battersea Park, having some drinks in Hoxton square, walking along the river in Hammersmith,..

Last weekend was the Open House in London and my friend Pablo, who I met in my Erasmus in Delft came to visit me with his friend Rocio. They've just spend one day and a half in London but I think they really enjoyed, and I enjoyed a lot with them although the huge drunkeness of Friday night, hehehe. It was great going to the Shunt with them and find that strange guy who payed for our taxi without us hadn't even asked for it. Was short but intense!

And this weekend, Argentinian BBQ in Iaccopo's place. Good meet, good wine, and good friends: good combination! :-) After that, dinner in Betty's new home, just 35 minutes walk from my place! Happy to see her back to London!
And today, great lunch with the people from my team. We went to Blanca's place in Windsor. Julia, Sharan, Andrés, Santiago, Go, Mika, Blanca, her husband and me. Everyone has prepared something and we had a big tasteful lunch, really good! lovely garden, delicious food and lovely people, what else do I need? After lunch we had a nice walk around the city: the park, the castle, the river,.. It reminded me the NL.

Lately I'm thinking a lot about my life, what do I want, where do I want to go, what is it really important. And, yeah,.. I'm realizing that I use to dream too much, without accepting the facts. I dream and I try to make my dreams become reality but sometimes is good stop dreaming, stop wasting energies in something that is not really bringing you anything (it's not worth it!!!) and start appreciating more that what is there, that people that is there every time, that people that you can really trust.
It is hard to accept that you are not important anymore for some people that was still important for you. But once you realize of that, you appreciate more that people that is always there, that's the people that should really be important for you. And luckily I have great people around! :-) Thank you!

the destiny,...

Last weekend visiting the Docklands

Already two weeks has passed since I received an email from the Japanese embassy telling me that unfortunately I hadn't been selected for getting the Monbukagakusho scholarship.
At the beginning I was very disappointed because I put a lot of effort to get it and it seemed like that was for nothing,...But it is never for nothing,.. you always learn something and this time I've learnt that maybe go to study another master in Tokyo was not what I should do,..
I started to think though that maybe I should go to work! hehehe But I am afraid of the Japanese working conditions,.. even if I think I could really learn a lot. At the moment I'll wait to see what is waiting for me at F+P because we've finished the City of Justice project and now I am supposed to start working in a new one,.. let's wait to see if it is stimulating enough to keep me in London,...

Since yesterday I've started to think about the destiny. There is one person in my life that each time that appears (virtually or physically)makes me believe in the destiny. He probably doesn't even know about this little space where I can tell what I think and what I am doing,.. but today it is dedicate to him. Thanks for the smile that you raised in my face!
I believe that there are some non-material links that could not be ever erased. Sometimes you don't even know how have they been created, sometimes you would like to break them,.. sometimes you would like to materialize them, but they just exist in that state and you cannot alter them.
Today I would like the wind to bring me to no-man's land, would that be possible?